her ears instantly flattened in embarrassment and her cheeks warmed realizing that she had just revealed to blyds that she still dreamed about him. shitshe mumbled to herself. as she looked at blyds as he continued his sentence she went through an internal battle in her mind. yes she still dreamed about him, and now he knew that, but should she try to play it off, or just let the rest of the cat out of the bag. As blyds finished talking, she found her mouth already responding before she had made a decision. her instinct was to pour her heart and honesty to blyds. always had been, even against better judgement, like now. “Well of course i did. I-I’ve missed you. and US,” she said softly. her eyes widened in horror as she realized what exactly she had said and she quickly tried to recover. “Not us us. not like that. but just, us, you know?” she blurted quickly, hoping she managed to save herself, even though she hardly knew what she meant as she said the ridiculous words. she groaned and shook her head while avoiding his gaze, deciding to just start over completely. “What I’m trying to say is i miss seeing you. and having fun, and talking, like we used to always do.” she finished with a sigh, slowly bringing her glance back up to his eye level, secretly hating herself. she bit her lip slightly when he mentioned he was glad she was okay and just nodded her head.he doesn’t need to know everything, just let him think you’re just fineshe thought to herself while nodding. truth was, maybe now she was starting to be okay, but she had to hit rock bottom before she got to where she was now, and she still had miles to go before she would truly be ‘okay’. \
her ears perked as the conversation returned to stara, she found it intriguiging that blyds was not only back in the pridelands and therefore her life, but he actually for once didn’t have mate. After she and him had gone beyond repair, he wasn’t single for long before mating with her once-best friend sabini. when that failed there wasn’t a large gap between him and stara only. It was no secret, she would be the first lioness to attest that blyds was a lion of affection and comfort. he preferred to be with a mate and have a companion at all times, which is what she found so intriguing about his current status.we’re all grown up, no longer innocent kidsshe thought to herself. her face once again flushed and heated as he in turn made the effort and placed his paw to hers and she offered a silent smile instead of the actual words “your welcome”.
she quickly jerked her paw away and reverted to her nervous habit of pawing at the dirt when he bluntly posed his next question. a lioness of her age and title should be mated by now. the other lionesses of the pride had offered to select a mate for her, but kiara had refused, still clinging to her fairy tale of true love and forevers. with a nervous gulp she shook her head back and forth slowly. “n-no I’m not mated,” she spoke with shame. “My grandfather is currently the king, allowing my father and mother time to fully focus on me,” she explained, quickly realizing she was revealing to much. “And kopa too of course,” she blurted quickly. “You know, better preparing us to take over the kingdom and stuff” she finished, closing her eyes and once again groaning. Blyds presence always got her mind spinning and tongue in knots, and she often found herself blundering thru her sentences and embarrassing herself along the way.
He chuckled lightly to himself when he saw Kiara flatten her ears, cursing quietly to herself. He winked at her, showing that he didn’t mind to hear such a thing. Actually, quite the opposite. Why would he be mad, or even think anything less of her for it? In the state he was now, hearing that somebody thought or dreamt of him from time to time was refreshing. It was nice to see that he was often in Kiara’s mind, whether she were dreaming or awake, and that she didn’t resent this fact in the slightest, nor did she resent him. His other ex, Sabini, only thought about him to think about much she hated him. She certainly held quite a bit of resentment within her, though she wasn’t the only one. Blyds himself very rarely looked back on her with only happiness or fond memories, for that was not what the majority of the relationship consisted of. However, he found it impossible to look back on his time with Kiara without getting just the least bit happy, and very much nostalgic in every sense of the word. He’d loved Stara, he’d loved Sabini, but he never felt like he could pour out every single one of his thoughts to them like he was able to with Kiara. She just got him. She didn’t judge him, didn’t think his hopes were funny or ridiculous. And it went both ways, for she’d trusted him just as much. When Kiara said she had missed them, Blyds’s eyes went wide. His ears perked up and he replayed those words in his head, in her voice, trying to wonder if he’d heard them correctly. Her fumbling right afterwords told him that he certainly had. “I understand,” he said quickly, ducking his head down and smiling sincerely. “Truth be told, I miss… us … too. We were so young back then, but it’d been such a nice thing, what we had. It’d been real,” he murmured, nostalgia sweeping over him in great tidal waves. “We did have a lot of fun,” he remarked. “Remember when I taught you to hunt? And the races we had? You know I let you win,” he teased, grinning broadly at her. She nodded when he said he was glad she was okay, but it looked insincere. “I mean… you are okay, right?” he said slowly. He had a hunch not everything was fine, being as intuned to her emotions as he was. Not as much as he’d been back then, no, but the connection was still there.
He felt like he would always have some sort of a connection with his past mates, with the lionesses who had helped shape him into the lion he was now. They had all left pawprints on his heart, the kind that would never fade away.Kiara had been the first. She’d been young love, full of hopes and wants and desires that were hard to curb. She had been the realest love, for even though it had not worked out, it had been purer than the water they drank from on lazy days. She’d opened his heart and his mind up, and they’d had times he knew he would never forget about. Sabini had been the second, interwoven with Stara. (He had always been faithful physically, but back when he’d been unhappy, his mind had begun to wander to a close friend at times.) Sabini had been his hardest to deal with love, the kind that brought you on a rollercoaster ride from high to love, never knowing where you’d stop at. It had been wild and real, but with two suspicions minds that couldn’t make it work. And Stara had been the sweetest, the one that made him want to cry when he thought about her. Even in their fights she was kind, often submissive… sometimes too much so. Blyds never liked to argue, no, but she’d rarely taken charge in the way he sometimes liked. It just hadn’t worked out, as much as Blyds wished that it did. He found he was unlucky with love and, sad as that was, it wasn’t something he could go back and change. Still, his smile matched Kiara’s as they looked at each other, both surely remembering those first months together
When Kiara pulled her paw far away, however, he knew that the spell had been broken and he’d said something wrong. Blyds was a charmer, that much was for sure, but he didn’t always know the perfect words to say to make somebody feel better, to make them happy. He also didn’t always know the right questions to ask or the right ways to ask them, as displayed clearly here, as he made Kiara feel unfortunately uncomfortable. When she said she wasn’t mated, he cocked his head to the side. “How? There are so many lions, and you’re easily one of the prettiest lionesses here,” he said, complimenting her before he even realized he did it. He just smiled broadly though, knowing that she needed it. “Ah, that’s good. I’ve missed your dad,” he said, smiling. “He was always very wise.” He noticed Kiara looked upset so he stepped closer and suggested, “Hey… I saw a waterfall on my way here, and it didn’t look like anyone was hanging out there. Wanna go for a swim?” he suggested, feeling nervous that she might say no.
She smiled an embarrassed smile when he said he missed them as well. she tilted her head upwards, meeting his gaze as a more genuine smile spread across her muzzle. “Correction: You TRIED to teach me how to hunt,” she burst out in a fit of laughs. she felt herself relaxing by the second as the pair settled into their usual banter. she quickly frowned however, when he seemed to see right through her facade. “n-no. I’m not really okay,” she said with a sigh. She wasn’t sure how ready she was to confess to him that her life had been hell ever since he and her went their separate ways. How not a day went by that she didn’t think about the cub they had made and lost together. How the urge to be a mother haunted her nightly. Nor How she cried herself to sleep of loneliness. she shook her head slowly from side to side, not ready to tell him the full truth of it all. “Things around here have just been… hard, i guess you could say” she said slowly, thinking about each word carefully before saying it. She offered a weak smile as he complimented her. When her eyes looked up to meet his, her cheeks flushed and her smile involuntarily widened into a cheeky grin, paired with a soft giggle. she loved it when blyds complimented her. something about when he said these things, made her feel that of all the lions in the world, he was the one who actually meant it.
she couldn’t help but wince slightly as he spoke of her father. she and him weren’t exactly on the best of terms lately, as simba had become more overprotective than ever, never letting her out of his sights, hence her frequent midnight strolls. It was her only chance to get out, get some fresh air and think for herself for a change. when blyds mentioned a waterfall she grinned ear to ear. “I’d love to” she purred as she got to her feet, swishing her tail happily through the air. “Lead the way,” she spoke in a silky tone, her blood beginning to pump in excitement.