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OOC: The Hardest Goodbye

anaasi:

Due to recent events in my life, i’ve realized that I want, and need a break from Role Playing. I work 40 hours a week on a computer as a graphic designer, and come home just to sit on the computer to role play, missing time with my boyfriend, taking my dog to the park, reading a good book, and the hundred other activities I could do that could get me off a computer and out in the real world.

I love all of you, and enjoy writing with you all. But role playing needs to be put on the back burner at the moment. I’m not deleting the account for anaasi, nor am i saying that I’ll never be back. Just for now she will be on an indefinite hiatus.

I will still be around as Co-Mod of the group, and will participate in tiny chats and fun every now and then.

Sorry to just drop off in the middle of a plot, but now is just an opportune time to take the much needed break that i need.

<3 Crystal

same for Kiara as well. Sorry blyds =[

blyds/kiara

blyds:

pridelandprincesskiara:

kiara feigned a look of enlightment. “Ohhhh THAT’S what i’m doing wrong. I NOT supposed to introduce myself. You know, I’m glad you cleared that up or else I would have continued knowing each and every herdsmember,” she said, her tone obviously dripping in sarcasm before letting out a playful growl and swating at his face with soft paws.

When blyds pressed the issue, wanting to know more as to what was bothering her she frowned. “Blyds, can we please just not talk about it right now?” she spoke in a pleading tone. The night was about her escaping her problems and relaxing, not to sit and discuss every detail. Especially with the lion who coincidently seemed to be the source of all her problems, to no fault of his own. his presence actually brought forth a familiar free-spirit within herself, and she wanted to run, to play, and just BE. the smile quickly returned to her face as she considered the turn of the events. This was the reason she had loved blyds so fiercely when she was younger, and why she couldn’t seem to shake him now. he made her feel ALIVE, no matter what was happening in the world around her. She longed to go back to that time when they were mates, madly in love and oblivious to the responsibilities of life. knowing that was impossible she decided to make the best of what was in front of her, and considered blyds’ sugggestion of a swim to be his best yet.

On her feet now and ready to go, she glanced back at blyds, eager for him to lead the way to this secluded waterfall he spoke of. she pumped her nose to his cheek and prance in a circle as he slowly trotted forward. “wanna race?” she playfully snarled and challanged him, true to her old form. without waiting for his response she darted off, entirely clueless if she was even going in the right direction. “I’m waitinggggg!” she called out in a playful, sing-song voice as she sprinted ahead.

He had to fight the urge to burst into laughter at that, trying his best to keep a serious persona. “Kiara!” he shook his head and looked sternly at her. “It usually lowers your chances of being able to hunt them when, as you approach, you wav and ask how their day was. Studies all around the Pride lands show that’s one of the top ten worst ways to lose your kill,” he said, nodding as though this weren’t a joke between the two. When she swatted at his face he got down into a playful position and growled teasingly, harmlessly. He lunged forward and nipped at her paws, grinning up at her.

Blyds was the kind of lion that could easily switch from being funny and joking around, to being extremely serious and getting down to business. This was a perfect example of that, as he nodded and stood up straighter. He didn’t really understand it, when others didn’t want to open up and talk about whatever was bothering them. He was the kind to open up and vent when he was upset, but he knew that he couldn’t take it personally. If she was upset, he’d have to just try to make her feel better, and not push her to talk about it. Unlike him, others only got even more sad when they tried to talk about the things that bothered them, and he kept a mental note of that locked in his brain. “Of course. You don’t ever have to tell me if you don’t want,” he said. “I just want to make sure everything is… y’know… decent, at least.” After all, it was the least he could do for her. Kiara had saved his life, literally. He’d been training, pushing himself so hard that he felt like he was about to burst. When Sabini had cheated on him, that had pushed him to the brink of it all. He was one to take his training pretty far, yes, but when he began to push a huge boulder up a hill, slamming his head against it until he saw stars, that was clearly no matter of building up muscle. He’d tried to drown himself, and Kiara had saved him. No matter what ever happened between the two, he had her to thank for his life.

He trotted forward eagerly, glad to get his own awful day off his mind. He’d been walking and wandering for so long, just meandering around the Pride lands as though something would come up and save him from utter boredom. And - surprise, surprise - it had, in the form of a lioness who looked adorable as she pressed her nose to his cheek and moved around him. “You sure you’re ready to lose?” he asked, grinning at her. Of course, he’d go easy on her. It was pretty well-known that Blyds was the fastest lion in the Pride lands. When she darted forward, he burst into laughter. “Wrong way, you nut!” He raced after her and nudged her side, tilting them both a bit more eastward as he let her go a bit ahead of him.

"well it just so happens that its my JOB to know how every animal in the pridelands’ is doing!" she laughed and stuck out her tongue when he nipped at her paws, knowing full well that her logic had more holes than substance to it. 

As he pardoned her from having to explain herself, she smiled warmly and appreciatively. She didn’t care if blyds agreed with her requested silence, but the bottom line was he respect it, and her, enough to not push the issue. she loved that about him. Blyds was a passionate lion, that she knew. but he also knew when to push and when to pull back. It was a divine talent that he possessed, and she loved him for it; always had. she noted a certain, familiar sparkle in his eye when he looked at her as she got antsy and excited. the look caused butterflies to consume her insides. not wanting to dwell or think on it too much, she eagerly sprinted away, laughing as she went. “I Never lose anymore!” she joyously shouted over her shoulder. she instantly frowned and blushed however when he pointed out that she was going the wrong way. as he nudged her into the right direction she growled softly from pride. that same pride caused her legs to move faster than she ever believed possible. She could not let him win….

There was a few problems with that idea however. Kiara hated being alone, and not having somebody run directly beside her killed the joy. Then there was the fact that her attention span rarely allowed her to focus on one challenge for so long. her mind was already drifting back to moments before when she felt butterflies. as she contemplated the possibilities, she lost focus on running as the motion became merely mechanical, greatly decreasing her speed. 

Fujo/Kiara

fujo-the-outsider:

Prideland Princess: OPEN

fujo-the-outsider:

fujo was starting to feel more comfortable in the pridelands. he was holding his head higher and laughing more and harder. he was feeling good for the first time in his life. he was actually walking around the pridelands looking for someone to talk to.

as he padded…

surprised by the even temper and understanding of this lion, fujo looked up somewhat confused but mostly embarrassed. while he WAS getting used to the pridelands being a welcoming place, he was still hard wired to flinch whenever he angers or upsets someone. fujo looked into her eyes and half smiled half frowned. “it was an accident. i didnt mean to bump into you.” fujo said “if i meant to, you would have known it.” fujo said trying to make a joke

kiara just smiled and reached out to place a paw on the lion’s shoulder. “Hey, I said it was okay. Hakuna Matata!” she said with a soft laugh, her father having taught her the phrase long ago. as fujo made a joke she grinned wider, her tail cheerfully swishing behind her. “Is that so? Mister…..?” she paused, hoping he would catch the hint that it was his cue to chime in with his name.

OPEN

fujo-the-outsider:

fujo was starting to feel more comfortable in the pridelands. he was holding his head higher and laughing more and harder. he was feeling good for the first time in his life. he was actually walking around the pridelands looking for someone to talk to.

as he padded around by the watering hole he noticed something odd. it took him a minute but when he saw it, it was hard to miss. there was absolutly no motion in the water and there were no lions, no birds, noting by the water. it was completely still. “this is odd” fujo thought to himself as he kept walking by. fujo started going through all the possibilities as to why no one would be at the water on such a marvelous day. “had something happened? had he missed a huge event?” he thought to himself. he couldnt figure out what was going on. he turned a corner around a rock heading away from the watering hole and ran smack dab into a lion. “sorry, i didnt see you there” fujo said to the lion without looking up.

Kiara was sitting in the shade of a large rock as she licked her paws and coat clean. Suddenly she felt something collide with her, causing her to lose her balance and tumble forward. “oof!” she mumbled as her body softly landed against the ground. She got to her feet quickly, more embarrassed that she had lost her balance than she was concerned somebody had just bumped into her. with a quick shake she shook the dirt from her pelt before giving a sheepish smile. “umm that’s okay”she mumbled sweetly

i-kenna:

anaasi:

i-kenna:

i-kenna:

So I’m having a bit of a down night…not feeling too great…brother’s at the bar…and I’m left alone with a 3d TV. Who wants to join me via tinychat for a viewing of The Lion king to take my mind off things?

no? ok D:

i went into tiny chatz and nobody waz dere >.<

THAT’S BECAUSE I WAS WAITING FOR AT LEAST ONE PERSON TO REPLY BEFORE I SAT THERE ALONE BY MYSELF.

hmmm.. makes sense

blydsiebooooooo: Bring Me Heartache |NP| Blyds & Kiara

pridelandprincesskiara:

She smiled an embarrassed smile when he said he missed them as well. she tilted her head upwards, meeting his gaze as a more genuine smile spread across her muzzle. “Correction: You TRIED to teach me how to hunt,” she burst out in a fit of laughs. she felt herself…

kiara feigned a look of enlightment. “Ohhhh THAT’S what i’m doing wrong. I NOT supposed to introduce myself. You know, I’m glad you cleared that up or else I would have continued knowing each and every herdsmember,” she said, her tone obviously dripping in sarcasm before letting out a playful growl and swating at his face with soft paws.

When blyds pressed the issue, wanting to know more as to what was bothering her she frowned. “Blyds, can we please just not talk about it right now?” she spoke in a pleading tone. The night was about her escaping her problems and relaxing, not to sit and discuss every detail. Especially with the lion who coincidently seemed to be the source of all her problems, to no fault of his own. his presence actually brought forth a familiar free-spirit within herself, and she wanted to run, to play, and just BE. the smile quickly returned to her face as she considered the turn of the events. This was the reason she had loved blyds so fiercely when she was younger, and why she couldn’t seem to shake him now. he made her feel ALIVE, no matter what was happening in the world around her. She longed to go back to that time when they were mates, madly in love and oblivious to the responsibilities of life. knowing that was impossible she decided to make the best of what was in front of her, and considered blyds’ sugggestion of a swim to be his best yet.

On her feet now and ready to go, she glanced back at blyds, eager for him to lead the way to this secluded waterfall he spoke of. she pumped her nose to his cheek and prance in a circle as he slowly trotted forward. “wanna race?” she playfully snarled and challanged him, true to her old form. without waiting for his response she darted off, entirely clueless if she was even going in the right direction. “I’m waitinggggg!” she called out in a playful, sing-song voice as she sprinted ahead.

Bring Me Heartache |NP| Blyds & Kiara

blyds:

pridelandprincesskiara:

her ears instantly flattened in embarrassment and her cheeks warmed realizing that she had just revealed to blyds that she still dreamed about him. shitshe mumbled to herself. as she looked at blyds as he continued his sentence she went through an internal battle in her mind. yes she still dreamed about him, and now he knew that, but should she try to play it off, or just let the rest of the cat out of the bag. As blyds finished talking, she found her mouth already responding before she had made a decision. her instinct was to pour her heart and honesty to blyds. always had been, even against better judgement, like now. “Well of course i did. I-I’ve missed you. and US,” she said softly. her eyes widened in horror as she realized what exactly she had said and she quickly tried to recover. “Not us us. not like that. but just, us, you know?” she blurted quickly, hoping she managed to save herself, even though she hardly knew what she meant as she said the ridiculous words. she groaned and shook her head while avoiding his gaze, deciding to just start over completely. “What I’m trying to say is i miss seeing you. and having fun, and talking, like we used to always do.” she finished with a sigh, slowly bringing her glance back up to his eye level, secretly hating herself. she bit her lip slightly when he mentioned he was glad she was okay and just nodded her head.he doesn’t need to know everything, just let him think you’re just fineshe thought to herself while nodding. truth was, maybe now she was starting to be okay, but she had to hit rock bottom before she got to where she was now, and she still had miles to go before she would truly be ‘okay’. \

her ears perked as the conversation returned to stara, she found it intriguiging that blyds was not only back in the pridelands and therefore her life, but he actually for once didn’t have mate. After she and him had gone beyond repair, he wasn’t single for long before mating with her once-best friend sabini. when that failed there wasn’t a large gap between him and stara only. It was no secret, she would be the first lioness to attest that blyds was a lion of affection and comfort. he preferred to be with a mate and have a companion at all times, which is what she found so intriguing about his current status.we’re all grown up, no longer innocent kidsshe thought to herself. her face once again flushed and heated as he in turn made the effort and placed his paw to hers and she offered a silent smile instead of the actual words “your welcome”.

she quickly jerked her paw away and reverted to her nervous habit of pawing at the dirt when he bluntly posed his next question. a lioness of her age and title should be mated by now. the other lionesses of the pride had offered to select a mate for her, but kiara had refused, still clinging to her fairy tale of true love and forevers. with a nervous gulp she shook her head back and forth slowly. “n-no I’m not mated,” she spoke with shame. “My grandfather is currently the king, allowing my father and mother time to fully focus on me,” she explained, quickly realizing she was revealing to much. “And kopa too of course,” she blurted quickly. “You know, better preparing us to take over the kingdom and stuff” she finished, closing her eyes and once again groaning. Blyds presence always got her mind spinning and tongue in knots, and she often found herself blundering thru her sentences and embarrassing herself along the way.

He chuckled lightly to himself when he saw Kiara flatten her ears, cursing quietly to herself. He winked at her, showing that he didn’t mind to hear such a thing. Actually, quite the opposite. Why would he be mad, or even think anything less of her for it? In the state he was now, hearing that somebody thought or dreamt of him from time to time was refreshing. It was nice to see that he was often in Kiara’s mind, whether she were dreaming or awake, and that she didn’t resent this fact in the slightest, nor did she resent him. His other ex, Sabini, only thought about him to think about much she hated him. She certainly held quite a bit of resentment within her, though she wasn’t the only one. Blyds himself very rarely looked back on her with only happiness or fond memories, for that was not what the majority of the relationship consisted of. However, he found it impossible to look back on his time with Kiara without getting just the least bit happy, and very much nostalgic in every sense of the word. He’d loved Stara, he’d loved Sabini, but he never felt like he could pour out every single one of his thoughts to them like he was able to with Kiara. She just got him. She didn’t judge him, didn’t think his hopes were funny or ridiculous. And it went both ways, for she’d trusted him just as much. When Kiara said she had missed them, Blyds’s eyes went wide. His ears perked up and he replayed those words in his head, in her voice, trying to wonder if he’d heard them correctly. Her fumbling right afterwords told him that he certainly had. “I understand,” he said quickly, ducking his head down and smiling sincerely. “Truth be told, I miss… us … too. We were so young back then, but it’d been such a nice thing, what we had. It’d been real,” he murmured, nostalgia sweeping over him in great tidal waves. “We did have a lot of fun,” he remarked. “Remember when I taught you to hunt? And the races we had? You know I let you win,” he teased, grinning broadly at her. She nodded when he said he was glad she was okay, but it looked insincere. “I mean… you are okay, right?” he said slowly. He had a hunch not everything was fine, being as intuned to her emotions as he was. Not as much as he’d been back then, no, but the connection was still there.

He felt like he would always have some sort of a connection with his past mates, with the lionesses who had helped shape him into the lion he was now. They had all left pawprints on his heart, the kind that would never fade away.Kiara had been the first. She’d been young love, full of hopes and wants and desires that were hard to curb. She had been the realest love, for even though it had not worked out, it had been purer than the water they drank from on lazy days. She’d opened his heart and his mind up, and they’d had times he knew he would never forget about. Sabini had been the second, interwoven with Stara. (He had always been faithful physically, but back when he’d been unhappy, his mind had begun to wander to a close friend at times.) Sabini had been his hardest to deal with love, the kind that brought you on a rollercoaster ride from high to love, never knowing where you’d stop at. It had been wild and real, but with two suspicions minds that couldn’t make it work. And Stara had been the sweetest, the one that made him want to cry when he thought about her. Even in their fights she was kind, often submissive… sometimes too much so. Blyds never liked to argue, no, but she’d rarely taken charge in the way he sometimes liked. It just hadn’t worked out, as much as Blyds wished that it did. He found he was unlucky with love and, sad as that was, it wasn’t something he could go back and change. Still, his smile matched Kiara’s as they looked at each other, both surely remembering those first months together

When Kiara pulled her paw far away, however, he knew that the spell had been broken and he’d said something wrong. Blyds was a charmer, that much was for sure, but he didn’t always know the perfect words to say to make somebody feel better, to make them happy. He also didn’t always know the right questions to ask or the right ways to ask them, as displayed clearly here, as he made Kiara feel unfortunately uncomfortable.  When she said she wasn’t mated, he cocked his head to the side. “How? There are so many lions, and you’re easily one of the prettiest lionesses here,” he said, complimenting her before he even realized he did it. He just smiled broadly though, knowing that she needed it. “Ah, that’s good. I’ve missed your dad,” he said, smiling. “He was always very wise.” He noticed Kiara looked upset so he stepped closer and suggested, “Hey… I saw a waterfall on my way here, and it didn’t look like anyone was hanging out there. Wanna go for a swim?” he suggested, feeling nervous that she might say no.

She smiled an embarrassed smile when he said he missed them as well. she tilted her head upwards, meeting his gaze as a more genuine smile spread across her muzzle. “Correction:  You TRIED to teach me how to hunt,” she burst out in a fit of laughs. she felt herself relaxing by the second as the pair settled into their usual banter. she quickly frowned however, when he seemed to see right through her facade. “n-no. I’m not really okay,” she said with a sigh. She wasn’t sure how ready she was to confess to him that her life had been hell ever since he and her went their separate ways. How not a day went by that she didn’t think about the cub they had made and lost together. How the urge to be a mother haunted her nightly. Nor How she cried herself to sleep of loneliness. she shook her head slowly from side to side, not ready to tell him the full truth of it all. “Things around here have just been… hard, i guess you could say” she said slowly, thinking about each word carefully before saying it. She offered a weak smile as he complimented her. When her eyes looked up to meet his, her cheeks flushed and her smile involuntarily widened into a cheeky grin, paired with a soft giggle. she loved it when blyds complimented her. something about when he said these things, made her feel that of all the lions in the world, he was the one who actually meant it. 

she couldn’t help but wince slightly as he spoke of her father. she and him weren’t exactly on the best of terms lately, as simba had become more overprotective than ever, never letting her out of his sights, hence her frequent midnight strolls. It was her only chance to get out, get some fresh air and think for herself for a change. when blyds mentioned a waterfall she grinned ear to ear. “I’d love to” she purred as she got to her feet, swishing her tail happily through the air. “Lead the way,” she spoke in a silky tone, her blood beginning to pump in excitement. 

Bring Me Heartache |NP| Blyds & Kiara

blyds:

pridelandprincesskiara:

she hated herself for not being able to hide her emotions better, not that she really expected different. “I’m sorry”, she sniffed as her lips forms a small, embarrassed smile. “why is it i can never keep it together around you?” she attempted to make light and laughed slightly, the sound quickly silencing as she looked into his eyes and saw the concern, mixed with pain, that reflecting right back at her. “i-i just thought i wouldn’t never see you again. Yet here you are. Its really you. And you’re really here. sitting a few feet away from me. there are nights i’ve dreamed about this” she spoke slowly, wiping another rogue tear from her cheek. “Its like.. you’re back from the dead or something I feel…” she finally mumbled. 

as he began to talk about stara, her ears perked in interest upon hearing he was no longer with her. she quickly flattened them again and spoke softly, “I’m sorry it didn’t work blyds. but at least you’re home now…” she told him, reaching out a paw and placing it on his habitually as a form of comfort. she frowned and quickly lift her paw, worried she was being inappropriate or making him uncomfortable.

“not much has changed around here” she mused, looking around at the lands surrounding them. “everything is much the same, and everything is different all at once” she sighed, letting her eyes stay fixated on a single large star. 

He smiled tenderly at Kiara, knowing just what she was thinking. How was it that they always seemed to fall apart around each other? They were like dominoes  falling over when the other one did. Of course, Blyds had been through quite a lot lately, making him stronger than he’d been the last time he saw her. Still, this was emotional, but he stayed as composed as possible for her. “No apologies needed,” he said. He chuckled at her comment and shrugged his shoulders. “I ask myself the same questions when I’m around you… which, erm, hasn’t been much lately,” he said quietly, almost guiltily, though he really had nothing to be guilty for. Their last encounter was her apologizing for her “not being herself” and throwing herself on him. It’d been weird, but even after that Blyds found it hard to shake her, and all of the good deeds she’d done for him, as well as the good times they’d had together. When she said she’d dreamed about seeing him again, his ears perked up. “You’ve dreamed about seeing me? I mean… you actually wanted to?” he asked, cocking his head to the side. He chuckled lightly and nodded. “I know how you feel. Being here, seeing you again… it’s so surreal. I’ve wondered about you for so long… I’m just glad to know that you’re okay.”

It was so weird, to be talking to his ex-mate today, just after breaking things off with Stara. He didn’t have any ill will towards her at all, despite the fights and conflicting views on some matters. He still cared deeply for her, and he would always love her, but not quite the same way he did when they were first mated, when things had been so different. He ducked his head down at Kiara’s apology and shrugged. “Things happen, you know? I had a feeling we’d be parting ways for a while,” he admitted. When she put her paw over his, he felt comforted… far less so when she pulled it away. He looked up at her and gently moved his paw over, just the tip of it overlapping hers, and he smiled. “Thanks.”

“I could tell,” he remarked, tapping his paw over hers. “It’s still the same old Pride lands it was when I first arrived .. well, sort of,” he said, grinning crookedly. “Who’s the king now? Are… um, are you mated?” he asked awkwardly, not quite sure if that was appropriate for him to ask.

her ears instantly flattened in embarrassment and her cheeks warmed realizing that she had just revealed to blyds that she still dreamed about him. shitshe mumbled to herself. as she looked at blyds as he continued his sentence she went through an internal battle in her mind. yes she still dreamed about him, and now he knew that, but should she try to play it off, or just let the rest of the cat out of the bag. As blyds finished talking, she found her mouth already responding before she had made a decision. her instinct was to pour her heart and honesty to blyds. always had been, even against better judgement, like now. “Well of course i did. I-I’ve missed you. and US,” she said softly. her eyes widened in horror as she realized what exactly she had said and she quickly tried to recover. “Not us us. not like that. but just, us, you know?” she blurted quickly, hoping she managed to save herself, even though she hardly knew what she meant as she said the ridiculous words. she groaned and shook her head while avoiding his gaze, deciding to just start over completely. “What I’m trying to say is i miss seeing you. and having fun, and talking, like we used to always do.” she finished with a sigh, slowly bringing her glance back up to his eye level, secretly hating herself. she bit her lip slightly when he mentioned he was glad she was okay and just nodded her head.he doesn’t need to know everything, just let him think you’re just fineshe thought to herself while nodding. truth was, maybe now she was starting to be okay, but she had to hit rock bottom before she got to where she was now, and she still had miles to go before she would truly be ‘okay’. \

her ears perked as the conversation returned to stara, she found it intriguiging that blyds was not only back in the pridelands and therefore her life, but he actually for once didn’t have mate. After she and him had gone beyond repair, he wasn’t single for long before mating with her once-best friend sabini. when that failed there wasn’t a large gap between him and stara only. It was no secret, she would be the first lioness to attest that blyds was a lion of affection and comfort. he preferred to be with a mate and have a companion at all times, which is what she found so intriguing about his current status.we’re all grown up, no longer innocent kidsshe thought to herself. her face once again flushed and heated as he in turn made the effort and placed his paw to hers and she offered a silent smile instead of the actual words “your welcome”.

she quickly jerked her paw away and reverted to her nervous habit of pawing at the dirt when he bluntly posed his next question. a lioness of her age and title should be mated by now. the other lionesses of the pride had offered to select a mate for her, but kiara had refused, still clinging to her fairy tale of true love and forevers. with a nervous gulp she shook her head back and forth slowly. “n-no I’m not mated,” she spoke with shame. “My grandfather is currently the king, allowing my father and mother time to fully focus on me,” she explained, quickly realizing she was revealing to much. “And kopa too of course,” she blurted quickly. “You know, better preparing us to take over the kingdom and stuff” she finished, closing her eyes and once again groaning. Blyds presence always got her mind spinning and tongue in knots, and she often found herself blundering thru her sentences and embarrassing herself along the way.

Bring Me Heartache |NP| Blyds & Kiara

blyds:

pridelandprincesskiara:

she hadn’t expected to see him ever again. and if she ever did run into him, she wanted to be ruling the land with a handsome mate by her side and a few cubs. in fewer words, she wanted to prove to herself and everyone else that she was worthy and not an accident waiting to happen. of all lions to know that, she for some reason needed blyds to know it the most. yet, here they had run into each other, completely grown up with nothing to show for herself. she was living with her parents and had snuck out of their cave for a nighttime stroll, as if she were a child. She caught him glimpse not far into the distance, and her emotions threatened to burst. She knew the spot well, an area she purposefully avoided even to this day due the many memories it evoked. She had never found a way to deal with the memories and sort them out to be filed away permanently. It was something kiara was in capable of doing with anything. She held all of her memories, good and bad, right on her heart and carried them wherever she went. 

she smiled as he said exclaimed he was here to stay, but as blyds stepped forward her breathing grew heavier and the smile faded with nerves. as he asked how she’d been, and made eye contact, her eyes filled with water instantly. internally she cursed herself. she couldn’t let him see her like this. But she had never been able to hide her emotions and thoughts from this lion before her. “i-I’ve been good” she sniffed, blinking back most of the water, however forcing one tear to drip down her muzzle. she quickly threw her head down and focused on the ground. seeing him was so unexpected, as were the memories of her youth that poured along with it.

“w-where’s stara?” she asked, trying to hide a sniffle. she knew this shouldn’t be the first question she asked him, but it was the first, and actually, the ONLY thought on her mind. His answer would determine how she shuold prepare herself for every subsequent day she may run into blyds. She needed to know so as to prepare herself. She had grown to hate surprises. 

Running into Kiara was certainly a surprise… but was it a pleasant one? Blyds assumed that would be determined by how the conversation went. So far, they’d done a lot of staring at each other. That wasn’t necessarily bad, of course, for Kiara had always been such a lovely sight. But he couldn’t really look at her for too long without remembering everything that they had been through. When he saw her face, he saw all of the expressions he’d seen on it in the past. Maybe it was because he hadn’t thought about her in a few days - a few days longer than he usually went without her crossing his mind for a bit - or maybe it was because those expressions were the ones that haunted her when he did think about her. Her smiling after he said something absolutely corny and totally ridiculous to her; her laughing when they ran around together, always able to make up some sort of activity to pass the time; and her expression of pleasure whenever they were alone, holed up in their cave in the dark of the night. He’d always felt guilty thinking about his exes when he was with Stara, though he didn’t know why. Now that he was right in front of one them, he felt it was easier to let his thoughts come to him, to let the memories resurface and haunt him for a few moments, just like the vision of her bright brown eyes had. He recalled them burning into his when they had that awful fight, recalled the tears that spilt when she told him she miscarried their little one… he shook his head, trying to get those visions out.

He was usual so good at that, at getting the bad thoughts to leave him. But now it was harder, especially since she was so close. He forced a smile on his face when he saw hers, but both of them seemed to fade around the same time. Even now, after going so long without speaking, they fell into a similar rhythm. He noticed her eyes beginning to water, and felt guilty. So, so guilty. Why? Was he the one making her cry right now, without even realizing it? He had no clue, he just felt awful to see her like this. When she said she’d been good, he answered sadly, “You don’t sound like it.” He noticed a tear fall before she could hide it, and he ducked his head down to look at her when she tried to hide her face away. “Hey… are you alright?” he asked quietly. He knew that seeing her would bring up wild emotions in him… but he hadn’t even considered that it would do the same for her.

At her question, he sighed and sat down on his haunches. She was still some feet away from him, which made it easier to breathe and think. “She’s back at the Border lands,” he answered simply. Though he knew he didn’t have to say anymore, words always seemed to tumble out of his lips when he was around Kiara, and before he knew it he had blurted out, “We aren’t mates anymore.” He felt tears prick his eyes as he said that aloud, and he took a shaky breath. “Things… didn’t work out.”

she hated herself for not being able to hide her emotions better, not that she really expected different. “I’m sorry”, she sniffed as her lips forms a small, embarrassed smile. “why is it i can never keep it together around you?” she attempted to make light and laughed slightly, the sound quickly silencing as she looked into his eyes and saw the concern, mixed with pain, that reflecting right back at her. “i-i just thought i wouldn’t never see you again. Yet here you are. Its really you. And you’re really here. sitting a few feet away from me. there are nights i’ve dreamed about this” she spoke slowly, wiping another rogue tear from her cheek. “Its like.. you’re back from the dead or something I feel…” she finally mumbled. 

as he began to talk about stara, her ears perked in interest upon hearing he was no longer with her. she quickly flattened them again and spoke softly, “I’m sorry it didn’t work blyds. but at least you’re home now…” she told him, reaching out a paw and placing it on his habitually as a form of comfort. she frowned and quickly lift her paw, worried she was being inappropriate or making him uncomfortable.

"not much has changed around here" she mused, looking around at the lands surrounding them. "everything is much the same, and everything is different all at once" she sighed, letting her eyes stay fixated on a single large star. 

Bring Me Heartache |NP| Blyds & Kiara

blyds:

pridelandprincesskiara:

she suddenly felt her heart jump into her throat when the voice, his voice, spoke her name. Instead of acknowledging it was really her he was talking to, she burst into the first question that came to mind. “W-what are you doing here, blyds? Are y-you back for good?” she stammered in surprise. as a nervous habit she lifted a paw and smoothed the fur atop her head and down the back of her neck. she quickly glanced around, searching for the scent of his mate or cubs. well hell, they probably weren’t cubs anymore. kiara found herself wandering about how they ended up looking, completely unaware of akiki’s return to priderock. She usually tuned her father’s ramblings out and merely pretended to listen. had she missed something as important as blyds and his family returning to the pridelands?! 

Despite the rampant thoughts swirling in her mind, she couldn’t help but smile as he approached. “hey you” she spoke softly, almost in a whisper. Seeing him destroyed all logic in her mind as old memories came flooding back.

He felt like he were in a dream, or at least hallucinating. He knew Kiara would be in the Pride lands, at least, he assumed she hadn’t left since he’d last been here. But running into her… well, while that had been a possibility, it was never one he dwelled on. Perhaps he was scared to think about what might happen if he did. It wasn’t so bad now, he realized, but who knew what topics might arise? He took a steady breath and tried to smile, though it came out more like some strange quivering smirk. “I’ve decided that the Border lands… well, they weren’t all they seemed cracked up to be,” he murmured. “Yeah,” he said, actually smiling after a moment of thought. “I am.” It was such a relief to get this off his chest, that he was coming back here. There were so many memories surrounding just this area, the center of the Pride lands. He took another look around and realized that this wasn’t too far off from where he and Kiara had first met, when he’d thought her how to hunt and they ended the day off playing in the watering hole and racing each other. They’d been so young then, their relationship so full of promise… he closed his eyes momentarily, chasing away the vision of that first day together, one of his first days in the Pride lands.

He’d grown up since then, and he knew it didn’t do well to dwell on his past. Kiara was a part of his past - a big part - and that’s how he had expected it to stay. But here she was, in his present. He boldly took a step forward and nodded. “Hey, you,” he echoed softly. “How have you been?” he asked, his eyes flickering up to meet hers.

she hadn’t expected to see him ever again. and if she ever did run into him, she wanted to be ruling the land with a handsome mate by her side and a few cubs. in fewer words, she wanted to prove to herself and everyone else that she was worthy and not an accident waiting to happen. of all lions to know that, she for some reason needed blyds to know it the most. yet, here they had run into each other, completely grown up with nothing to show for herself. she was living with her parents and had snuck out of their cave for a nighttime stroll, as if she were a child. She caught him glimpse not far into the distance, and her emotions threatened to burst. She knew the spot well, an area she purposefully avoided even to this day due the many memories it evoked. She had never found a way to deal with the memories and sort them out to be filed away permanently. It was something kiara was in capable of doing with anything. She held all of her memories, good and bad, right on her heart and carried them wherever she went. 

she smiled as he said exclaimed he was here to stay, but as blyds stepped forward her breathing grew heavier and the smile faded with nerves. as he asked how she’d been, and made eye contact, her eyes filled with water instantly. internally she cursed herself. she couldn’t let him see her like this. But she had never been able to hide her emotions and thoughts from this lion before her. “i-I’ve been good” she sniffed, blinking back most of the water, however forcing one tear to drip down her muzzle. she quickly threw her head down and focused on the ground. seeing him was so unexpected, as were the memories of her youth that poured along with it.

"w-where’s stara?" she asked, trying to hide a sniffle. she knew this shouldn’t be the first question she asked him, but it was the first, and actually, the ONLY thought on her mind. His answer would determine how she shuold prepare herself for every subsequent day she may run into blyds. She needed to know so as to prepare herself. She had grown to hate surprises. 

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